This month over at PALS, I write about the transformation of myself through the various stages of this journey of infertility.
“Now that I am trying to conceive again, my identity has taken another shift and the image in my mirror has transformed yet again. While I took some time away from trying to make room for my grief, I prayed that when we were ready God would bless this journey quickly and easily. I begged and cried on many car rides to work, “Please Lord, no more procedures, no more exhausting appointments, no more drained bank accounts. Lord, if you make it easy for me to get pregnant, I promise I’ll do my best to be brave and honor you during the pregnancy!” I pleaded. I hoped (and still hope) that the ride to getting pregnant won’t have to be as daunting as actually being pregnant again.”